Heather came over while I was drawing this. She asked to look at it, and AS she was READING it my hands picked up a pillow to hide behind. I did it without even thinking about it!

All of these things are things I have done subconsciously (or semi-consciously) because on some level I believed my apprearance was offensive to people. The scarf thing, I can’t even remember exactly why it happened, it was probably an offhand comment from a friend, and suddenly I was convinced that I had a horrible weak/double/whatever chin, and that everyone noticed it and was disgusted by it. And then I spent the next two months trying to hide it under scarves.

But no one noticed it. No one walking down the street looked at me and thought, wow, check out that chick’s hideously weak chin, I can’t believe she dares to walk around in polite society like that. Most people don’t have Audrey Hepburn’s chiseled, perfect profile. Most people don’t care that most people don’t have Audrey Hepburn’s profile. Certainly the majority of people that I come across every day don’t give a crap that I don’t have Audrey Hepburn’s profile.

(An aside: I have been wondering lately if it’s worth trying to delve into WHY I feel this insane level of self-judgment and criticism, or if that’s counter productive. Maybe it doesn’t matter where it comes from. Maybe it’s in my best interest to just let that go and keep working on being less critical of myself.)

Anyway. Hey I have to go on a little trip tomorrow. I’m going to do my best to get a comic done and uploaded tomorrow night, but it might not be possible. Fingers crossed!