So maybe I have been overdoing it a little with the salads. Although, it’s Friday morning as I type this, and I’m thinking about how nice it would be to have a salad for lunch, so at least I haven’t gone completely crazy in the other direction.

I have been thinking a lot about my sister’s wedding this winter. Last night I dreamed that the bridesmaid dress arrived (fortunately in the dream it fit, so I’m taking that as a good omen). Over the past decade or so, I can’t tell you how many times I was planning a trip to see the family for the holidays or for some event and was just desperate, DESPERATE to lose weight ahead of it. To walk in the door 30 pounds lighter and have everyone fuss over it. To be thinner than my mom and sisters and know that I was superior because of it. Isn’t that a dark thought? I can’t believe I thought such things about my own family.

It never worked anyway. I was never able to lose any weight in that spirit of jealousy and competition. I found myself thinking this morning, it would be nice to lose some more weight, but if the wedding were tomorrow, I would not be ashamed to wear that dress in front of the whole church. At the least, standing up there, my appearance won’t be what I’m thinking about. It’s not like it’ll be what anyone else there is thinking about, right?

In other news, I woke up this morning to a delicious savory smell, Niles started a stew last night, of goat meat and parsnips and carrots and whatever else was going on in the fridge. It’s in the slow cooker, and will probably be cooking at least until I get home from work tonight. It’s going to be SO GOOD. I’m also picking up our half of the veggie CSA we share this afternoon, and I have heard rumors there’s another acorn squash in there. I might just roast them both tonight, and refrigerate them until I figure out what I’m doing with them.

In other, OTHER news, if you are in Chicago you have a chance to hear me play accordion tomorrow (Saturday) night, at the Small Bar in Logan Square. We go on at 10pm, and it’s completely free!