This feels like it’s a little bit of a bummer, like, oh man, eleven pounds, why can’t she just be happy and proud of herself? I’m not as depressed as it might sound, though.

It’s actually encouraging to me, to realize that there is no difference in how big or fat or gross I have felt, no matter if I weigh 210 pounds or 120. It means that they are two separate issues, and that I don’t have to lose weight in order to start feeling better about myself. I mean losing eleven pounds is nice too, don’t get me wrong. But this means that I don’t have to wait until I’ve lost 50 more pounds to start feeling nicer about myself. Does that make any sense?